Creating my Cleanse

November 5, 2012

So lately I haven’t been living a life that I’m the most proud of. I’ve had nights full of binging, eating instead of working out, staying up way later than I should, etc. Putting work, family, friends, my dogs before my health. Making up every excuse in the world to not eat healthy, to not workout, and to not take care of myself. And of course, as all things do, its reached a pivotal point… where I can continue on this road and ignore the feelings in my gut and heart, or make a drastic change to re-align with my true self.

I know this may all sound trite and easy to fix. But for some people (like myself) its been a lifelong battle. Going through stages of keeping up a schedule for workouts, eating clean, fighting the temptations and cravings. And then fall off that bandwagon and have complete disregard for my diet, give in to most cravings, make other things a priority over my workouts. Its two opposite lifestyles that I’ve been living my whole life. And I’m tired of it. Really tired of it.

I read fitness and health blogs on a daily basis. I read about people who live paleo, raw, vegan, who’ve once struggled with their weight and now live a healthy lifestyle. And every day I think how the hell do they do it? I’ve done it, for a short period of time. I’ve even had long term success. But how do these people actually make this their lifestyle? Dedication? Determination? Sheer power of will?

Whatever it is, it all beings with the first step. My first step is a plan. I know I’ve done this before and talked about it before, but I love cleanses. They’re mentally tough, physically challenging, and they work. I’ve had success in the past on a cleanse. What I didn’t succeed with was the 8th day. The day after the cleanse. How do I eat? How do I go forward and keep up with these amazing changes?

What I’ve realized is that it takes longer than seven days to break a habit and longer than seven days to change hard wired behaviors. And it’s not something to beat myself up over. It just is. So this time around, since I’m a planner, I’m planning this cleanse out for the next 30 days. I figure, 30 days is a good amount of time to cleanse my body, my mind, break some old habits, create some new habits, and make it a lifestyle. Obviously the goal is to continue this after the end of the 30 days, but my hope is that by then I would have to plan out the next 30 days. Maybe a week by week plan? Something that keeps me on track but not obsessive.

This blog helped me stay accountable during my last two cleanses. So I will continue blogging through this process as well. My plan for this week is to get my research done today and tomorrow on what I’m going to eat during the 7 day raw/vegan cleanse. Today and tomorrow I will be grocery shopping and prepping what I can so that I can start on Thursday. I will also be using the Arise and Shine Cleanse 7 products during the first 7 days. Once this cleanse is over I will be following the Whole 30 program, which will add in protein and cooked foods. There will be an easing in process that I have yet to determine, but this is the general idea.

I appreciate you all who have continued to read this blog and support me through every journey I go on. Stay tuned for more updates!


How do you handle real life after a raw/vegan  cleanse? I have no idea.

I knew before embarking on this cleanse that I would be successful if I had the tools to get me through each day and hard core support from Sasha and the people closest to me. I needed the meals to be provided for me, I needed my schedule laid out… I just needed to not think about it. To just do it. And that’s what I did. It took that stress out because I knew what was coming for the day, and I knew what I had to do. I didn’t have many options  so I ate what I was given. And the plan worked. The cleanse worked. So now that I’m off of it, what do I do?

Focus on the determination and mental toughness I had last week, and keep it with me. There’s no denying that what I did was really hard for me. I now know that I need to add some protein to my diet and find ways to do that while keeping the rest of my diet in balance. After this weekend, I also know that wheat/yeast and I do not get along. Hello beer, double double, and pizza… you think I went a little nuts? Yeah, I’d say so.  I’m bloated, my stomach is upset, I’ve had some small cystic breakouts. No bueno at all. So today’s all about going back to what worked. A mostly raw/vegan diet, with some added protein. Eggs, fish, chicken. To be successful that this, I need to set myself up like I want to succeed. Make the right choices, stock my kitchen with the right food, be present with my goals and choices, and remember this is about my health.
So this week is sort of like a trial week. I want to keep to my diet while adding in some protein and see how I do. In order to do this, I need to be able to make some awesome food. So, I ask you- what are your favorite raw and/or vegan cookbooks out there? Any raw/vegan blogs that you love that would help me along this process? Any recipes that you love and would like to share? Let me know!!
** On a side note… I went to the Brad Paisley concert with some friends this weekend, where coors lite was consumed by all. Some of the best pictures came out of that night and I wanted to share a few of my faves…

My brother, me, and the bf 🙂

My faves- Steve and Libby

Probably the coolest pic of the night- thank you Libby for getting this one! 🙂

One of the biggest factors that got me through the cleanse was the support I had every single day. Friends sending random messages, “hey! you can do it!”, “thinking about you!” and “Good morning…bottoms up and tallyho!!” <– you know who you are 😉  People I don’t even know commenting on the blog (thank you for your support!!!) And then the people closest to me, knowing exactly what I needed when I needed it.

Although I’m not one to get super personal on this public blog, I still want to high light a couple people in my life that make me feel like a million bucks every day and that I love dearly.

Lets start with the most obvious, the bf 🙂 His incredibly sweet encouragement (even though he  didn’t agree with it the entire time), support, and ability to catch me when I fell made the process that much easier. To give you a little background, S is an EMT so those skillz kicked in anytime I felt light headed, achy, and down right out of it. To cheer me up and let me know how proud he was of me, he got me a few things to show it! A SF 49er  hitch cover, like this one!

(Anyone else as excited as I am for football season!??! First game, August 5- Cardinals and Saints. NFL Sunday Ticket ordered. Beefin up my fantasty team. Pretty much cant wait!)

And then he made me this the other day (he is a rec leader for a summer camp with young kids. They’re art project was puff painting the crap out of something…)

Anyone else remember Rob Nen? The Nenth inning! Smoke on the water… those were the days…

(Rob Non is my fav Giant of all time…well him and Will Clark, but who doesn’t love Will Clark?)

Next on my list of favorite peeps, S’s mom 🙂 As soon as she heard I was doing this cleanse, she was nothing but supportive and encouraging. She stocked her fridge with coc0nut water (so she could have something to offer me when I came over), sent me daily texts, and big hugs. She also picked me up this AWESOME water bottle that was absolutely perfect for this cleanse.

Fruit in the bottom, no mess, tasty water. Yes please!

This water bottle is so cool. Made by rove, you can find it at Khols 🙂

My good friend Libby has also been a huge support. Her and I talk daily on fb, getting each other through our work days. Libby took a few days and went to LA with her madre and hit up Disneyland. What did she return with? These adorable goodies!

Goofy mug and mickey wine stopper!!

And this guy!

Goofy pen!

Sorry for the awkward picture at my messy desk… Yes, that is a news paper. Yes I do read it. And yes, that is Taylor Kitsch trading card from the movie John Carter. Don’t make fun, you know he’s hot.

Last, and most definitely not least. I couldn’t have done this cleanse without her. It was with her that we decided this would be a great idea. She gave up her time, made herself available for me 24/7, and guided me through each and every emotional and physical roller coaster. If you’ve ever thought about doing a cleanse, are curious about raw foods, or just want to get your health back on track, you NEED to give her a call. I honestly couldn’t recommend her more (and not because shes one of my best friends) but because she is amazing at what she does. Check her out here

If I haven’t already made it clear, I’m going to say it one more time. Pushing your mind and body to the limit takes serious dedication, determination, and support. You can give yourself all of these, but when you feel like you just cant eat another green smoothie, your support system is there to make sure you do, and to tell you how amazing it tastes! (even though it may taste like butt).

Till next time, Happy Friday everyone! Have a wonderful weekend! I’ll be at Brad Paisley tonight with my fav’s, getting my country on 🙂

The Power of Will…

July 20, 2012

You know what’s getting me through my day?

“This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!”

Good ass kickin music… can you name that song? 🙂

Other things getting me through my day:

Anything Chris Young… but specifically this song

Umm, hello 🙂

The Eagles… they are my heart and soul

Friends supporting me with words of encouragement, talking about other stuff to take my mind off everything…

Hiiiiiii Lib!

Working my absolute butt off at work… 1 new client yesterday and majorly saving a client today.

And the fact that in t minus 2 hours, I will be frolicking with my pups around Fort Funston
Until then, toodles my noodles!

Finding Support

August 9, 2011

Last night I experienced my first women’s group called Thrive. It is lead by my life coach, with about 8 women. I’ve been seeing my LC  for about 8 months, so when she invited me to her women’s group, I was honored. It is by invitation only and meets about once a month. I wasn’t quite sure what to expect.  I’ve done some group counseling with women in the past and I really loved it. But I knew this would be different. More personal, and much deeper. And I was right. To be in a room with the one person you trust implicitly, and 8 other women to support you, have compassion for you, and who are going through things just like you was an experience I don’t think I’ll ever forget.

The meeting began with a guided meditation where I think the purpose was to find yourself in the space, open up your mind and heart and discover what it is you wanted to share with the group. Whether it is something you need support with, something you need to get off your chest, or nothing at all. Just needing to listen to everyone else. [I had a really difficult time concentrating during this. My mind was everywhere but with the group. I fought it for a while, but eventually just let it go. And where did it go? Cooking. Recipes. I came up with 3 new salad dressing recipes that I am dying to try out. Interesting though huh?]

I was hesitant and worried that I wouldn’t be able to fully open up in the meeting. First because there were 6 women I had never met. Second, I felt like I had nothing to talk about before I arrived. And third, my cousin is also in the group. I was worried for her, worried for me. And I wanted to make sure we would both be ok talking and sharing with everyone, knowing that were family and were sharing secrets that we don’t know about each other.

It was actually her sharing that broke down my walls, opened the door, and let the emotions release. I don’t think I’ve had an emotional release in months, one that was for myself that actually transferred energy, making a difference in what I was feeling. Part of me felt horrible for being grateful for what she is going through because it allowed me to not feel so alone.  What she is struggling with right now, are some of my biggest fears.

So to you, my beautiful cousin: You are strong, you are brave, and you are not alone. I love you and you will get through this. Thank you for being you. And thank you for supporting me.