The good news is I tried my bridesmaid dress on last night, and it “fits”… I zipped it up, and well, it fits. The bad news is that it doesn’t quite fit right. Besides some minor altering, my stomach isn’t as flat as I want. To give you a better idea, here is the dress I’m referring to:  The color is “Claret” not the black below.

bridesmaid dress

It’s a gorgeous dress, stunning in the deep dark red color too. And if I looked like the chic above, I would look stunning in it too. But I definitely don’t.  So back to the bad news… I weighed myself this morning and I’m 12lbs from my goal. 52 days to lose 12lbs. Hopefully in the stomach area… maybe tone up my shoulders and arms… that would be ideal.

And I’m on it. Day 2 back on my diet track and it’s on. Lots of lean protein, veggies, some fruit, and tons and tons of water. Yesterday’s workout was killer, and tonight’s workout is going to be even harder for sure. I slept like crap last night… pretty sure I had at least one night terror and woke up with a migraine.  I’m thinking it might have something to do with watching Dateline on ID before bed… its possible LoL.

Anywho- today I made up some lean ground turkey and sautéed/braised cabbage with bacon, onion and garlic. I love braised cabbage and this recipe turned out OK. Not great, but ok. But, cabbage helps the digestive system, cleans ya out. Always a good thing. The bacon is right on track with the Whole30 (all natural), and the ground turkey is just great to have on hand. Put it on a salad, have it with some eggs for breakfast, or over a sweet potato for dinner. I think I actually will do that tonight for dinner.

I’ll check back in tomorrow!


Happy Tuesday everyone! God I love three-day weekends. Especially Memorial Day… its pretty much my favorite family vacation weekend of the year. My family and our significant others go up to our house near Yosemite, go out on the lake, bbq, play a little drunken wiffle ball. So much fun.  This year was no different. We tend to have a tradition of getting in your face drunk on Saturday night, and I was the lucky winner this year. Go me.  All over a heated (and hilarious) debate started my Don Signori. His question was, ” how can you eat a pound of food and gain more than a pound?” Oh man did we come up with some good answers… and the theories got better and better as the empty bottles of wine accumulated in the middle of the table. It was a lot of fun!

So you’re probably asking what’s in 53 days? Welp, that would be my sister’s wedding. I have my bridesmaid dress that I havent tried on since we ordered it, and really need to do so. I’m nowhere near my goal weight, and I’m feeling pretty discouraged. I fell off my Whole30 train, ate some (delicious) but terrible for me foods and drinks. And now I’m back at ground zero. Or at least it feels that way. So I made a decision last night. Today is day 1 of 53. I have 53 days (or 7 weeks and 4 days) to get to my goal of losing 10-15lbs. To stick to my diet, to exercise 6 days a week, sleep 7-8 hours a night, drink lots of water, and hopefully not die in the process.  Theoretically this is doable. If I can lose 1-2lbs every week, I will hit my goal of 10lbs no problem. But I have to stick to my diet. I have to not eat the cake, have the margarita, or that piece of bread at dinner. I have to watch my portions, drink enough water, get in enough exercise.

Here’s how I’m going to do it:

1) Actually do my cook-up every week. Whatever it takes. Make the time and just freaking do it 🙂

2) Add in more cardio, specifically HIIT intervals on my (still broken, but hopefully soon-to-be-fixed) treadmill

3) SLEEP: this is huge for me. I’m a mess when I don’t get enough sleep. I’m already blonde, so this is devastating  <– I once drove past my office three times due to not enough sleep…

4) Get the junk out of the house, and keep it out! Honestly, we don’t really have that much “junk” since I’ve been doing the Whole30, but I gotta keep the chocolate chips out and sour patch kids.

5) Minimize eating out: Steven and I like to eat out, especially during the week. It’s easy, convenient, and were both so tired by 8pm that Chipotle sounds pretty good.  I just need to be smarter about this. Eating out doesn’t have to be a disaster, nor does it have to be the only thing I eat. I can get chipotle and add in some stuff I have at home. Or get the protein style burger, and have a sweet potato on the side.

All of this sounds so easy. Now I just have to do it. This blog is going to keep me accountable. It has to, so I’m asking all of you (the few that read my little blog) to support me in this as well.  Hold me accountable when I don’t post by the end of the day, ask me how the previous day went, and make me tell you what I’ve been eating!

I appreciate all of your support and time you take out to read this funny little blog of mine. Until tomorrow, enjoy the rest of your day back from vacation!

Welp, today is day three of the cleanse and I woke up feeling very tired today. Like a whole body and mind exhaustion. My bed was more comfortable than it’s ever been, and cuddling with Steven seemed way better than going to work. So after an extra hour of cuddle time (with the pups as well I might add) I got up and got ready for the day.

This morning I woke up pretty hungry, so I made my grapefruit juice/apple cider vinegar blend and mixed it with my Blessed Herbs “digestive stimulator” packet. With this cleanse, I’m adding to the cleaning of the colon with the Blessed Herbs Colon Cleansing kit. I’ve done this one before, and although it works great, it tastes like butt. The powder pretty much makes me gag every time I do it (5 times a day). But this time around Sasha came up with some good mixers that fit in with the cleanse, but make the digestive stilumator a wee bit tolerable. One of which is the grapefruit/apple cider vinegar blend. You may have seen this on pinterest floating around. It’s being referred to as a metabolism booster, recommended by Dr. Oz. And from what I can tell, Dr Oz. is like Oprah- people do what he says. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone to my parents house and my mom has a little note pad of Dr. Oz tips that she wants to make sure she shares with me.  Anywho- the second mix in is organic apple juice. I’m not a huge apple juice fan, but this does cut the awful taste of the powder, so I’m down.  I actually took a picture this morning of what I pack when I go to work. So here are my little jars of apple juice and the metabolism booster:

IMG_20130416_104052_867Apple juice on the left, grapefruit on the right.

And now todays feast! (Minus my dinner)


Yes you are reading that correctly: Morning Sex Smoothie (breakfast) and Silky Smooth Curry Cauliflower Soup (my favorite).  When I went to pick up my goods for today, Sasha goes, “the breakfast smoothie I made you… ohmygod, its so good. It’s so good, this was the only appropriate name for it” LoL. Yes indeed. It is delicious and filling! Thank god because I’m hungry today. Lunch is the cauliflower soup, which is seriously one of my favorite foods Sasha makes. I can’t seem to make it as good, so this is really a treat.

With the cleanse, day three is usually one of the hardest days physically and emotionally. I am 100% feeling the physical strain right now as I sit here typing this and trying to keep my eyes open. The emotional stuff may come out later tonight, or tomorrow. And usually with that comes crying, irritability, possibly some tantrums, and then a nice warm bath to make it all better.

A few of my friends have asked me about my caloric intake and my workout schedule. I’ve done two cleanses before while keeping up with my workout routine, and it was tough. This time around we’re incorporating bone broths into the soups and separate for me to sip on during the day. Although I’m not eating protein right now, I’m getting so many of the nutrients that my body is craving in order to sustain my workouts. Last night’s workout was tough, and I could feel my stamina dwindling near the end. But tonight will be the ultimate test. I’ve planned our my meals so that I have my soup (made with chicken broth) around 4:00, and 1/2 of a jar of chicken broth while on my way to boot camp. Then the rest of the chicken broth after boot camp, and another soup for dinner. Then a relaxing bath and early to bed for me.

I hope you’re all having an awesome day. Quick shout out to my cousin Tina- Happy birthday!!!!! And to all my friends who’ve gotten engaged in the last week (seriously like 6 of you), congratulations 🙂

oh hi, remember me? :)

April 15, 2013

**Prayers and thoughts for everyone in Boston, and those that were at the Boston Marathon during the explosions**

Well hi 🙂 Its been a stupidly long time since I last posted. I realized that my last post was about me finishing up a cleanse, and starting to eat a more paleo type diet. I’m pretty sure I didn’t post because I didn’t follow through with that. It probably lasted a few days, and then I had a bite of Safeway cake, and then possibly a piece of Safeway cake, and then all bets were off. So fast forward 5 months, and 8 pounds later, here I am again trying to gain control of my eating habits. And its sooooo hard. It’s the one thing in my life that I struggle with the most. And I know why. It’s sad to admit, but food has been the one steady good in my life. Food is always good. Cake is good. Wine is good. My moms chocolate carmel cake is pretty much the best thing ever. And it makes me feel good…. for a little while. And then comes the guilt, and the voices telling me I’m fat, etc which usually causes me to eat more.

So how do I break that cycle? Obviously the first part is recognizing it and having the balls to admit it. So now that that’s out-of-the-way, I’m looking at things that have worked for me in the past. What has worked (even temporarily) to help me have a healthier relationship with food? support from my friends and family, a diet “coach”, someone preparing the foods for me, cleansing, writing down what I eat…

And that brings me to where I am now. Day 2 of another detox cleanse, the beginning of a six-week weight loss challenge, and the start of a lasting change. This cleanse is not like the other cleanses I’ve done in the past, where I eat all raw/vegan foods. This is more like a prerequisite to a lifestyle I’d like to live out of eating mostly protein, veggies, fruits, and healthy fats. So I’m eating big salads with avocado, chia pudding for breakfast, jicima snacks, roasted vegetable soup. Its delicious.  With that, I’m eliminating sugars, grains, dairy, alcohol, and  legumes. Sounds intense, but there is a science behind it. It’s called the Whole30 plan, and you should check it out. The book It Starts with Food gets all sciency on you about why these foods actually hurt your body. Especially for those that workout regularly. It’s interesting and worth a read. You may even want to try it out after you read it. Its profound stuff.

Now back to my cleanse. If you’ve read past posts, you know that I have an amazing friend Sasha that creates and guides me through my cleanses. I asked her last week if we could do another one, to jumpstart the detoxing from sugar and all the crap I’ve been eating lately. And so, I’ve been eating delicious and beautiful foods that she’s been creating. Big salads with avocado, jicima, and arugula; roasted vegetable soups, and lots and lots of water. I’ll post some pictures as we go forward so you can all see the beauty, but for now you should check out her blog. Sasha is documenting how she creates these cleanses, the pricing (because most people think its super expensive), and her delicious creations.

So I also mentioned a 6 week weight loss challenge…. my trainer Ami decided  (after a lot of us were complaining about our weights) to create a weight loss challenge. Theres about 20 of us participating, a huge grand prize at the end ($500 to be exact) plus other prizes. Ami created workouts for us, workout schedules, meal plans, nutrition tips. It’s really awesome and so much fun to participate with everyone. Although it’s a competition, were all on the same team, rooting each other on. It’s gonna be fun. Oh and the Stevenator is participating too.

So I’m all weighed in, on day 2 of the cleanse, looking forward to my workout tonight. Check out Sasha’s blog to see what really goes in to creating a cleanse. It’s so interesting and she makes it do-able for everyone.

Until then, peace out home skillets.

So in the midst of my non blogging, I’ve been dealing with a slight injury and bad diet. Last week I was pushing through my stadium workout and slipped on a stair. I managed to jam my leg up into my pelvic wall, pulling my groin and twisting my knee. The frustration from the injury has propelled me to fall back into my emotional eating binges of chocolate chips and ice cream, and I feel like crap.  So, I called Sasha. Time for another cleanse.

This “cleanse” were doing is different from the previous one just a few weeks ago. I’m calling it more of a detox, more of a diet overhaul, and a “can i get my shit together please” type of diet. I felt so good after completing the last cleanse. The raw food fueled my body, cleansed my system. I wasn’t bloated, my hair was shiny, and I was sleeping like a baby every night. So why and how did I fall off the wagon? Its pretty simple actually: birthday cake, pasta, wine, and ice cream. My body wasn’t ready for me to reintroduce these things back to it. It’s like an addiction really, just one taste and I wanted the whole pint of ice cream.

So here’s the new plan. This time around Sasha and I agreed to incorporate more solid foods as well as 3 juice days instead of one.  For example, this morning’s breakfast consisted of a delicious red quinoa “cereal” with fig and walnut spread. It was so good and super filling.  Lunch is her infamous carrot and ginger soup, mineral broth to drink throughout the day, and home made nori rolls that she put together. Those I will have to take pictures of and send to you all. Cause its insane. She’s amazing.

The herbs and supplements are also different this time. Last cleanse I incorporated the Arise and Shine Cleanse 7 pack to assist with the detoxing and cleansing. This time around I’m using Blessed Herbs Colon Cleanse. Sasha heard amazing things about the Blessed Herb’s program, so we thought I’d give it a try.  I’ll take pictures of that as well when it comes in. (Just a side note, I paid for 2 day AIR on UPS for these things to get here yesterday… yesterday they were in South Carolina. I’M IN SHIPPING. I know how 2 day air works, and UPS- YOU FAILED. Idiots)

Like last time I weighed myself this morning and took a good look at myself in the mirror. I’m hoping for a little bit of weight loss, clearer skin, and less bloating. That would be ideal. Oh and also to get rid of my constant craving for frozen dark chocolate chips.

So I will keep you all informed, document this journey, and see where we end up next week. Next Saturday I will be on a plane, with my love, on our way to Hawaii. Not a bad thing to look forward to huh? 🙂

Taking it to the Limit…

August 10, 2012

I find it ironic that yesterday I posted about the possible tendonitis I have in my left knee. Last night during my stadium workout, I slipped on a stair doing one leg stair jumps. I caught myself, but I knew I landed a little funny. I had a hard time finishing the stairs, and a really tough time completing the walking lunges right after.

I’m lucky because it happened at the end of my workout. My knee has been sore for a while and felt a little more sore after that fall. I walked up to my car, drove to my friend Sasha’s for our workout sesh and iced the crap out of my hip and knee. But the pain just got worse. I foam rolled my entire body for over an hour, took some anti inflammatory meds, and kept icing.

A few hours later, I realized I could barely drive. So I drove to the bf’s. I couldn’t get comfortable. Standing, sitting, laying down. It all hurt. It was getting late and I was getting frustrated. We had a trip planned for this weekend that requires a lot of driving. Could I do it? What is causing all this pain? The bf and his mom tried their absolute best to make me comfortable and help ease the pain. But finally I couldn’t do it anymore. The pain became too much and I broke down.

I should have gone to the doctor’s earlier. I should have called someone earlier. I should have taken care of myself. But I didn’t. I waited. And I waited because I kept thinking it couldn’t be as bad as it felt. And now today I’m paying the price.
Last night I couldn’t sleep because I couldn’t find a comfortable position, so today I’m exhausted. Exhausted from crying, exhausted from the pain, and exhausted from all the hard work I’ve put my body through over the last few months.

After seeing my chiropractor and general physician today, I know I’ve severely bruised my hip socket and pelvis and have possible tares in my knee. The hip and pelvis make it very difficult to sit up right in a chair or while driving, and my knee is making it hard to cross my legs or just take a step.  So what did both doctors tell me? Rest. Ice. Anti-inflammatories.

Sometimes things happen for a reason. People miss flights they shouldn’t have been on, meet someone at the right place at the right time, etc. This experience has made me stop to think about the journey I’ve chosen to take to be healthier and more in tune with my body. As much as I’ve shifted the way I look at food and eat, I’ve also shifted the way I train. The obsessive tendencies I have towards food may have shifted to my workouts. And I can honestly say I am addicted to my workouts. Today is the first day in a very long time that I’ve missed a scheduled workout, and I feel ancy. Anxious.  So maybe this injury happened for a reason. To give me the opportunity to look at the way I train. Not just physically, but mentally. I have a tendency to push myself very hard when I want something and have a goal in mind.

When you’re on a journey like I am, with no real end or ultimate goal, the pushing never stops. So sometimes you need to take a breath and pause to look at all that you’ve achieved, appreciate where you are today, and look forward to where your headed. And in my case, ice the crap out of my knee and hip 🙂

Hi Everyone!
I wanted put out a quick update as today is one week after I finished the raw/vegan cleanse.

I’m still down 7.2lbs and feeling pretty good. I’ve added in some wheat, yeast, and dairy products here and there and the biggest change I’ve noticed are small breakouts on my shoulders and face as well as an upset stomach. Pretty much right after I had a little ice cream last night, my stomach punched me in the face. So, dairy is a no go right now. I’ve also had some beer (last Friday) and as of now, I can’t tell if the yeast in the beer, or the wheat from bread (as they were consumed in the same night) caused an upset stomach and breakouts.

Its much easier for me to stay away from yeast right now. No alcohol, no gluten, etc. Wheat seems to be a little harder to avoid  (hello cupcakes), but I think I’m doing a pretty good job of it.
Here is what my diet looks like this week:

Breakfast: 1-2 hard-boiled  eggs (sprinkled with cumin) , Synnergy or watermelon/chia cooler

Lunch: Salad- romaine, carrots, celery, raw/vegan pate from QueSeRawSeRaw, 1/2 avocado, 1/3 chicken breast, lemon juice

Snacks: plums, oranges, vegan/raw macaroons, healthy fasting tea, watermelon chia cooler, carrots

Dinner: Chai Almond Milk and banana smoothie, grilled veggies and salmon, big salads

Dessert: fudgie macarrons from QueSeRawSeRaw, chocolate “cheesecake” from QueSeRawSeRaw

Its been pretty standard since Monday as I needed to use up some of the produce I had. But I received my Farm Fresh To You delivery yesterday morning and was stoked to find fresh organic lettuce and a cantaloupe!!! (as well as heirloom tomatoes, zucchini, cucumber, lemon, and two plums).

I’m looking for a good tomato soup to make… trying to keep to vegan if possible Anyone have any good recipes?

Look for a new chia cooler tomorrow as well, Cantaloupe! Super excited about this one 🙂

Hope you’re all having a great day!